Less self doubt and more trust and action.
Ever have that nagging feeling deep down in the pit of you telling you to do something, yet you ignore it? Whether it is eating better, exercising, ending a relationship, taking that course, writing a book, auditioning for the role, etc we somehow find a way to push it to the side. (I did that even with writing this.) Why do we procrastinate over things that will only enhance the quality of our lives. It’s almost like a covert self-sabotage.
This is something that I constantly struggle with on a day-to-day basis. So I had to ask myself is it that I think I am undeserving, incapable, or just plain old lazy? After thinking about it for sometime, I think it may be a combination of all three to varying degrees. I am learning that when that inner voice speaks and calls me to action, I have to act with zero hesitation. The longer I sit on an idea or goal the less likely it is to come into fruition; and quite frankly none of us really have time to waste.
“The trouble is you think you have time.” – Buddha
I don’t want to be a great thinker but more importantly a mover, a shaker, a woman who gets shit done. Life is always going to move on with or without us. And that little or sometimes ferocious voice inside of us is our personal navigation system in this constantly changing world. We have to stop making excuses and stop being doubtful. Trust yourself and don’t think anymore about it. Do it now!
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.
– Marianne Williamson(A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of a Course in Miracles)
People often ask me why I workout so much. Working out for me is much more than just a means for staying in shape. It is my nourishment, my therapy, my friend on days that are gray. It is an opportunity for me to be present; to forget about anything that happened before that moment or any future anxieties. It’s just me, my body, and my spirit pushing past prior limitations.
When I say that exercise is a form of therapy I mean that in every way. It helps me battle with feelings of loneliness, depression, and self-doubt. There is something extremely empowering for me when challenging my mind and body. Exercise gets me out of the bed in the morning, or late in the afternoon on days when self doubt tries to set in. It’s thirty minutes to an hour and half of me going toe to toe with my inner demons. All those feelings of I’m not worthy, I can’t be happy, I can’t be successful are obliterated. What I’m left with is an epic high and the desire to crush every single doubt in my mind.
Beyond the amazing confidence boost being active gives me, physical activity is just good old self-care. Time for me to love on body. To be one with my body. Some days I may be in need of a good sweat to detoxify, or stretching/yoga to loosen up tight joints and muscles, or weight training to help me with my posture and form. Setting aside this time for myself helps me feel more centered and focused. How amazing it is to do something good for myself that no one else can do for me.
Staying active makes me love and appreciate the person I see in the mirror everyday; not just for the physical aspect of it but more importantly for the spiritual and mental clarity and confidence I gain. I see worthiness, strength, beauty, love, and an unstoppable spirit. Like I mentioned this is my nourishment, the fuel I need for the betterment of my soul.
What motivates you to stay active?